It was actually pretty good, but I was just on a lot of drugs. I wanted to rewrite tracks to avoid any sense of ‘woe is me’. There’s a lot of strings, a lot less electronics. I just wanted to make something that felt extremely powerful to listen to
Jazmin Bean on scrapping the old album and making the released record.
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Traumatic Livelihood[1] was the planned debut studio album by Jazmin Bean. It was likely planned to release during late 2022[2] by Aswang Birthday Cake, Island Records, Interscope Records, and Universal Music Group. However, it was later scrapped and revised into a new record.
Background[]
Bean started production for the album in 2019, during the sessions of the re-up of their debut EP, Worldwide Torture. The sound of the album was similar to that of Worldwide Torture, and during this time, Bean recorded tracks such as "63", "Carnage", "Puppy Pound", and "World Choke".
In an interview with Dazed, several early ideas were mentioned, such as the album having a music video for each song, the entire album being self-produced, and film being apart of the album process. However, it can be assumed all these ideas were later scrapped, due to future actions and statements Bean would make.
On April 9, 2020, Bean posted that their album would have features and said it was better than anything they’ve released before.[3] When asked to describe the album with only a phrase, Bean replied with, "trauma and fun".[4]
In ancipatoon of the album, Bean released two songs apart of the album as, singles "R U Looking 4 Me Now" and "Puppy Pound" was later revealed to be it with snippets of the song being shared. The aforementioned single would be released on March 25, 2022. "Carnage" was initially slated to be the third single from the album, accompanied by a music video. However, its release was delayed until after the album was scrapped.
During 2022 while being interviewed by tmrw, Bean stated that they were very excited for the album and that creative process was better in terms of them being less critical than while making Worldwide Torture, with them loving everything they created. They also stated that their goal wasn't to be mainstream, something they later touched in the interview with Ones To Watch stating they didn't scrap the album sooner from label requests was because they thought their labels wanted them to be a "product" of the industry.
During April 2022, Bean would go to rehab to battle their addiction on drugs, which put a pause on the album's development. After getting out they would start working on the album again recording multiple songs in June 2022. However, by later that same month the album was scrapped due to Bean not liking the sound of the songs and not feeling connected to it anymore, with the first songs written after it was scrapped being "Favourite Toy", "Shit Show", and "Traumatic Livelihood". The record label that helped Bean make the album also didn't like it very much, which which was another factor for it being scrapped.
Other songs that were intended for the album were going to be reused for the new record. The ones that made it were "Bitch With The Gun" and "Piggie".
In a interview with MELODIC Magazine on September 16, 2024, they responded to a interviewers question on if the album would be released one day, in which Bean replied that they will keep it in the "vault" but that they would like to "open up the doors" one day, possibly in relation to their upcoming project.
Session dates[]
- May 28, 2020 (during the Worldwide Torture re-up sessions)
- February 2, 2021
- March 2, 2021
- May 3, 2021
- November 25, 2021 ("GRBS" demo 2)
- June 10, 2021 ("Little Jimmies" acoustic demo)
Track list[]
- See also: Unreleased songs
- See also: Unreleased songs
In an interview with B-Sides after the album was scrapped, Bean revealed that the album featured 15 to 17 tracks. While no track listing placements are known, six tracks are confirmed to have been part of the final track listing.
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Confirmed tracks[]
- "C***" (released unofficially via Bean's Discord server)
- "Bleeding Wings" D
- "Growing Pains"
- "Carnage" (ft. Lucy Loone)
- "Puppy Pound"
- "Speak"
- "R U Looking 4 Me Now"
Other recorded tracks[]
- "63" UD
- "Addict"
- "A Whole New World"
- "Bitch With The Gun" (released on final record)
- "Counting Violets"
- "Doubts" D
- "Falling Feathers" U
- "Happy People"
- "I Scream" U
- "Little Jimmies" U
- "No More Lucky Stars"
- "Piggy" (released on final record as "Piggie")
- "This Is Not What I Thought It Would Be" D
- "Town Whore" D
- "Under His Eye" D
- "Vainglorious"
- "Winter Forever" D
- "World Choke" UD
- 8 minutes long song[5]
- 181+ other recorded songs (Bean stated they recorded 200 songs for the project, likely including possible tracks and outtakes)
- Unknown collaborations D (Bean posted that their album would have features in 2020)
Outtakes[]
- "Bitches Dress Pink" U
- "Jesus"
- 181+ other recorded songs ? (Bean stated they recorded 200 songs for the project, likely including possible tracks and outtakes)
Unconfirmed songs[]
- "Consume Me" (possibly first intended for this album)
- "Kiss Me Goodbye"" U (alleged song by insiders)
- "Selfish Soul (In Delusion)" (possibly intended for this album)
Side projects[]
- "I Like My Tea Hot" (Rico Nasty ft. Bean)
- "I Know You Would" U
- "My Heart Goes Bang (Get Me to the Doctor)" (Dead or Alivie cover)
Draft track lists[]
Bean confirmed on multiple occasions that while making the re-up of Worldwide Torture, they already had a track list for the the scrapped album, which was:
Other confirmed tracks[]
- "Carnage" (demo)
- "Puppy Pound" (demo)
- "World Choke"UD
- Unknown collaborations D
Music videos[]
| Title | Release Date | Length |
|---|---|---|
| "Carnage" | November 18, 2022 | 3:48 |
| "Puppy Pound" | March 25, 2022 | 3:34 |
Trivia[]
- The term "EFF" was used it the files of the album and it's songs. It's currently unknown what it stands for.
- As stated in the video interview with NME Bean considered making the project not an album, though they decided in the end to make it one.
- Bean stated on the Ones To Watch interview that the the album was theatrical, dramatic and very euphoric.