"This Is Not What I Thought It Would Be" is an unreleased song by Jazmin Bean. It was likely intended to be on the early version of Traumatic Livelihood, however, the project was revised and the song was not reused.
Background[]
Leak history[]
As with certain songs, "This Is Not What I Thought It Would Be" has been leaked on one or multitude occasions. The list below shows all the timed the song has been leaked:
- July 22, 2023 (final; full)[1]
Theme[]
The song seems to be about child grooming and rape. The narrator, likely Bean themselves, is singing about how this is not what they thought was going to happen, likely implying that things started off normal but escalated. The narrator questions the relationship, and wants to leave but their abuser manipulates them with a false sense of care.
Official versions[]
| Ver. | Intended project | Leak date | Prod. | Rec. date | Length |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| Final | Unreleased | July 22, 2023 | Unknown | June 2022 | 3:46 |
Trivia[]
- It's likely the song was made as a test for Bean to tap into different musical genres or transitional track due to being sonically similar to the final version of Traumatic Livelihood.