It looks back at my relationship with love and sex with a storytelling perspective, exploring the lengths you’ll go to when you’re conditioned from such a young age not to understand what love is. Unlike my older songwriting, this track juxtaposes sound, production and lyrics. It acknowledges the sadness I felt in my self-worth, but the song’s driving melody has an overall sense of hopefulness and catharsis.
Jazmin Bean on "Favourite Toy"
"Favourite Toy" (originally titled "Afraid Then, Afraid Now") is a song by Jazmin Bean. It was released on August 11, 2023 as second single from their debut studio album, Traumatic Livelihood, and is the third track on it. A acoustic version recorded during the Strawberry House Sessions was released on the extended edition of Traumatic Livelihood.
Background[]
The song was first mentioned, by name, in an interview Bean did with DIY Magazine, published November 24, 2023.[1] It was stated to be one of the first three songs written for the final record, along with "Traumatic Livelihood" and "Shit Show", and made Bean more confident during the rest of the album process.
The song was also originally called "Afraid Then, Afraid Now" and had production and writing from Lee Batiuk, though his contributions were removed when the song was reworked.
They teased the song, including one of it's demos and just the title[2], throughout 2023 via their social media. On May 12, 2023, Bean performed the track at The Great Escape Festival[3], and on June 11, 2023, at Download Festival, both prior to its's release.[4]
On June 24, 2023, Bean shared a video on TikTok with the final song teasing its official release.[5] On July 2, 2023, Bean would go live on TikTok and confirm that "Favourite Toy" is the next single and would likely release late July or early August of 2023.[6]
On July 28, 2023, Bean confirmed on Twitter that they would soon post the release date. On August 1, 2023, Bean posted across their social media, announcing the song’s release date and sharing a clip of the music video.[7] Bean shared the pre-save link and the official cover via Instagram on August 3, 2023.[8]
On August 4, 2023, fans noticed the music video and official audio had been posted on YouTube early. Bean made a response to one fan on Twitter saying it was mistake from their team, and asking for fans to not spread it.[9]
Leak history[]
As with certain songs, "Favourite Toy" has been leaked on one or multitude occasions. The list below shows all the timed the song has been leaked:
- TBA (Instrumental concept demo; partial)
- August 7, 2024 (demo 1; partial)
- September 1, 2024 (instrumental; full)
- September 11, 2024 (demo 1; partial)
Theme[]
As Bean has stated, the song is takes a their past romantic relationships and how they in those times didn't know what was proper treatment due to being conditioned so badly that they settled for anything, even if it was not the best. In the song Bean is shown talking about how their past partners would rip them to "shreds" and how they "felt nothing" they were glad at the time being at-least their "favourtie toy".
Official Version[]
| Ver. | Released on | Release date | Prod. | Rec. date | Length | |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| Final | Single • Traumatic Livelihood | August 11, 2023 | Matt Schwartz | 2023 | 3:02 | |
| Instrumental | Unreleased | September 1, 2024 (fully leaked) | Matt Schwartz | 2023 | 3:02 | |
| Demos | ||||||
| "(?)ATAN(?)" (demo 1) |
Unreleased | 2024 (partially leaked) | Lee Batiuk • Schwartz | 2022 | Unknown | |
| Instrumental concept demo | Unreleased | 2023 (partially leaked) | Schwartz | 2022 | ~10:00 | |
| Demo 2 | Unreleased | 2022-2023 (partially shared) | Schwartz | October 14, 2022 | Unknown | |
Videos[]
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Gallery[]
Cover shoot[]
| Photographer | Date | Location | Additional info. |
|---|---|---|---|
| Jazmin Bean | 2023 | Unknown | Statue made by Bean themselves. |
 Single cover |
Credits[]
- Personnel
- Jazmin Bean - writing, vocals
- Matt Schwartz - writing, producing, engineering, keyboards, programming, guitar, bass, and strings
- Paul David Hager - mixing
- Gamaliel Traynor - strings
- Adam Betts - drums
- Marcus Locock - drum programming
- Matt Colton - mastering
References[]
- ↑ https://diymag.com/in-deep/jazmin-bean-traumatic-livelihood-november-2023
- ↑ Bean via Instagram
- ↑ https://youtube.com/shorts/LqJiLApZ4dQ?feature=share
- ↑ https://youtu.be/jQv9JSuqXRU
- ↑ https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8dkqPvr/
- ↑ https://twitter.com/jazbeanss/status/1677913995632693248?s=46&t=ZiMCl-vXNx5kIYPdQr96kQ
- ↑ https://twitter.com/abortjazminbean/status/1686438580447846400?s=46&t=ZiMCl-vXNx5kIYPdQr96kQ
- ↑ https://www.instagram.com/p/Cvf8TS1M-Yx/?igshid=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==
- ↑ https://twitter.com/abortjazminbean/status/1687552028510461952?s=46&t=4Un8Vrd31hlnHlwyNH4Bg
