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"Bleeding Wings" (erroneously referred to as "Teenage Years", "Hard 2", and "Growing Pains" [not to be confused with the song of the same name]) is an unreleased song by Jazmin Bean. It was intended to be released on the early version of Traumatic Livelihood, however, the project was revised. It was later reused for the final version of the album but was ultimately removed to due it's leakage. The song remains unfinished.
Bean teased the song two times via their social media during 2021.
The song was played for Bean's label for them to judge their [then] debut album. However, the label did not like the direction of the album, and and getting out of rehab in June 2022, Bean would scrap it. They chose to rework the song for the final version of the album. However, after the song leaked prematurely on January 19, 2023, Bean responded via Twitter that the song would have to be scrapped and never finished.[1]
"I'll prob delete this I'm just so mad bc I've been working on this for so long and feels invasive as fuck to have shit that's not even old to be passed around before I even get the chance to share it . I know leaks are inevitable but I don't think my fans rlly get how it feels?"
"Can y'all stop messaging me letting me know whats being leaked and who's doing it unless you have a solution . Let the selfish rats do their selfish rat things idgaf anymore . Don't tell me u love me then take my music when it's NOT URS . Y'all spoil shit for urself ."
"Plz get why I would be upset. Andnot the fact that it happens to every artist I know that , and I know it will happen for eternity, it's the way it goes , but I get to be mad , it's my first time"
"LOOOOOOL sorry for my dramatics i got mad as hell for a second. This is all new for me. Getting used to this type of stuff like leaks is a process of emotions. Probs shouldn't process those emotions on twitter tho"
August 9, 2024 ("BLEEDING_WINGS_2022_04" unknown demo; full [OG file]) (BLEEDING_WINGS_07.02.2022" unknown demo; full [OG file])
Theme
The song seems to detail the experience of someone who went through trauma from a young age. The narrator talks about how the trauma affects them deeply, as if knives were being stabbed in their metaphorical wings, and while they wouldn't change anything from the past they feel like they've lost their teenage years.
Official versions
Note:
Various unknown versions have been leaked and teased over the years, though not much information is known about them. Due to this, those demos are listed as unknown demos, so no false information is spread about the order/dates the demos were made in.
Note:
Various unknown versions have been leaked and teased over the years, though not much information is known about them. Due to this, those demos are listed as unknown demos, so no false information is spread about the order/dates the demos were made in.